summer has long gone away now, baby

things have been going good. summer is over. school started. nothing new. same old people. one more year left, than i'm out.i'm not sure what i want to do with my life yet.
ugh it's only 12:45. i need a job. i need a car. i need my license, i need money. i need so many things. i need a lover. i need to cut my hair.
i'm going to the movies with cristopher tonight at like 9:30. lame time to see a movie, but he says he's hanging out with ryan and randy "all day." i don't know what he does with his days anymore. it's so sad. we're over-again. i wish he'd realize what he lets go. i wish things were back to normal. i miss him so much. now all i ask from him is to be my very best guy friend. we still fight. it's normal for us. we'll always fight. i think he's moving on. which is good for him. not so much for me. but whatever. it's what he wants. deep down i know he loves me. i know he misses me. he tells me he's "confused". he's not. what he wants is right in front of him. what he wants will always be waiting for him.